Forgive my truth

All I want is for you to love me. It's so easy and so hard.


I see your eyes wander and it makes me feel gloomy, when all I want is for you to see me. That's all I need. The human condition of lust is potent but I see that its just skin. Nine months is 8 months and a week longer than any other relationship, its scary and real.


I need to feel I am the one and only, the kind of man that you adore only. That's all I need.


Your friends always surround you. I see you dated one or two. Am I the one for you? Their jealousy seeps out into my skin and I feel it crawling so I then crawl in bed with you.


I need to feel that I am special, that you love me like no one else. I don't want to see you look at other guys. That's all I need. I'm your man.


Don't break my heart you see, I would bleed and bleed. Please just love me and ignore me being needy.


This is my first time on the field and I feel like a spinning wheel. Give me all your love. I know it's selfish, I need a lot. It's not easy to pinpoint the spot when I fell for you. I just want my love story. I want to know that you are the one for me and we will be happy and live so free. Life is not easy and neither is love but I feel it could be easier with you.


I know I sound crazy and my eyes are hazy from not sleeping after we fought. I just didn't want to think that I was not good enough to make you so happy. I can't live with the thought that you might not want me. It's hurting to put myself out there for you but I know its what I need to do. This is something you will never hear me say so I write it here in hopes that I will say it soon.