Warrior

A warrior doesn't need personal history. One day, he finds it is no longer necessary for him, and he drops it.

A beautiful quote I read today and it really moved me. It moved me for several reasons. I think these words sum up the last three months of my life. I have begun to let go of the past and accept my present. It’s interesting that we live so obsessed with everything in our possession and what we can achieve. I have lived with everything and I have lived with nothing. I still exist in the same soul and that is what makes me a warrior. I fight for it, the answers to my questions. I am not a warrior in the sense of fighting battles or destroying adversaries but more a warrior of myself. Trying to make a way for the world to work for me.

I have recently let go of the past in many ways and its truly liberating. I began by deleting emails and phone numbers from the past, deleting MySpace, and letting go of my life before the now. I will no longer dwell on the past. I have always been, for lack of a better word, a gypsy. I go where I want and partake of the world in my own ways while honoring my moral compass that guides me. I don’t judge others when possible and expect the same in return.

I have learned that the only way to be truly free is when you are no longer tied down to the world. I think that is why ancient man never created a book called “He’s just not that into you”. The world has changed. The relationship structure has changed and many assume this is for the best. Is this for the best?

Ancient warriors would fight and return home as victors. There was a sense of honor and they never worried about their credit scores or who to ask out on a date. They took what they want, had a moral code, and fought for the rest. There is always a downside but the basic idea is interesting to me.

Simple lives existing in simple ways was the idea and it seemed to serve its function. Why must we constantly try to progress? This constant need to acquire more and more, create more and more, and to live longer and longer seems to be quite unique our day and age.

I am letting go of my past world. I am seeking a spiritual enlightenment of some kind. I see the world in its true nature of good and bad and realize that without humans, the world would not exist. We cohabitate and we need each other, we all need each other.

Fate VS Free Will

We don't choose the things we believe in; they choose us."
—Lamar Burgess

Ive been contemplating these kind of questions more as of late. Its easy not to think about such dire things but it comes up everyday. For a long time...I believed in free will. We make our choices. We define our paths.

But lately..ive questioned this. Do we have any control? Its easy to say no..it frees us to an extent. Frees us from the burden of mistakes made, consequences. We can do whatever we want. When things happen in life that surprise us and we cant explain how they occured...it seems to point us in the fate direction. Im interested to find out how some of you guys look at this. Have you experienced events that changed your path..changed your mind?

Friendship

"Friendship is delicate as a glass, once broken it can be fixed but there will always be cracks"

"Friendships last when each friend thinks he has a slight superiority over the other."
- Honore Debalazac

"Friends are just enimies who don't have enough guts to kill you"

"Friends are like roses...you have to look out for the pricks!

"Whenever a friend suceeds, a little something in me dies."
- Gore Vidal

"I don't trust him. We're friends."
- Bertolt Brecht

"Only enemies speak the truth, friends and lovers lie endlessly, caught in the web of duty."

To Forgive

To forgive
"Love is the first cause. It is the point of light beyond all light and darkness, it is truly the cohesive power of the universe. Love is the key to every closed door. There shoud be no discrimination in love, for divine love embraces all alike, no matter what color race, sex, creed or religion.... True love excludes self polluting energies such as fear of failure, fear of truth, and much more. The truth is you cannot enjoy the reality of love until you can forgive. Even from Christ's heart come the words" Father, Forgive them for they know not what they do. " excerpt from The Divine Doctor by Joseph Michael Levry. Forgiveness is the golden key needed to open the gates for spirit to accelarate the resurrection of the divine in living form.

Relationships

Relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just great.

Night

Sitting on my bell tower

Looking down at you

Thinking of what the night will bring

Lusting after you

Tasting you on my teeth

Breathing down at you

Opening my wings for flight

Going down for you

Landing on your shoulders brow

Opening my mouth for you

Biting deep in your neck

Tasting the blood of you