Monday already?

Is it Monday already? After a very rough week, I can report that I am officially feeling good.
Last week was rough for many reasons. One…the weather. Two….broken up with on email. Three….the weather.

It was a glorious weekend. The weather was still terrible due to these horrible floods and rain that the bay area has been getting lately.
I went out with my friend josh and dre on Saturday and had a blast. We started out in the Castro and it was great. No drama and plenty of drinking. We ended up back at Josh's and watched Sweeney Todd. It was a pretty good movie from what I can remember. Blood and gore were abundant in the movie and I liked that a lot.

On Sunday, Josh and I started out with lunch and a movie. We went to see 27 dresses and I was surprised that I liked it so much. It definitely seemed to fit the bill as far as romantic comedies go but James Marsden really stole the show. He showed a comedic side that I had not seen before and was incredibly charming and sly. It was a fun movie and worth a nice rainy afternoon in the theatre.

Its Monday now and I am feeling good. Josh and I might be hitting up eighties monday at the bar on castro tonite. We went last week and had a blast. If the weather permits, hopefully we can go again tonite.

www.savedarfur.org

If you are reading this blog right now, you are probably
doing better than alot of people in Sudan. Its a horrible
situation and something I feel pretty passionate about.
Alot of people dont really know what is happening over
there so I thought I would blog about whats happening and spread the word.

Since early 2003, Sudanese armed forces and
Sudanese government-backed militia known as the
“Janjaweed” have been fighting two rebel groups in
Darfur, the Sudanese Liberation Army/Movement
(SLA/SLM) and the Justice and Equality Movement
(JEM), which have since fractured into over a dozen
groups. The stated political aim of the rebels has been
to compel the government of Sudan to address
underdevelopment and the political marginalization of
the region. In response, the Sudanese government’s
regular armed forces and the Janjaweed have targeted
civilian populations and ethnic groups from which the
rebels primarily draw their support.The Sudanese
government and the Janjaweed militias are responsible
for the burning and destruction of hundreds of villages,
the killing of hundreds of thousands of people and
rape and assault of thousands of women and girls.

THE FACTS!!!!!!!!!!!• As many as 400,000 people have been killed;
• An estimated 2.5 million innocent civilians have
been forced to flee their homes and now live in
internally displaced persons (IDP) camps in
Sudan or in refugee camps in neighboring Chad;
• Over 3 million men,women,
and children are reliant on
international aid for survival.
Not since the Rwandan genocide of
1994 has the world seen such a
calculated campaign of displacement,
starvation, rape, and mass slaughter.

I truly believe that knowledge is key in this horrible situation. Spreading the word to people and letting others know is important. You can read more at www.savedarfur.org or on myspace at http://www.myspace.com/savedarfurcoalition

Doomsday Trailer

This is the trailer for Doomsday. Its from director Neil Marshall. He directed The Descent and Dog Soldiers. Two really great movies that I highly recommend. It look great and how fucking hot is Rhona Mitra. Im stoked to see this!

Cloverfield

Woot! Thats all i can say about Cloverfield. I am happy to report that I wasnt disappointed with the movie.

I had tried to stay clear of most spoilers regarding the movie and I found it to be worth the wait.

The movie combines action, suspense and sci-fi in a great combination that left me satisfied and yearning for more in the end.

We begin with a group of friends at a going away party for a guy named Rob. Shit happens. People die and stuff goes boom!

I had a few issues with the movie. A few plot holes and a lack of gore could have been fixed but I cant complain too much. It was a fun ride and better than most of the genre movies that have been coming out lately.
Im actually going to see it for a second time tonite. Im stoked!

Sounds good in theory

To thine own self be true. It sure sounds good in theory.

To see beyond the surface is both complicated and innovative. What lies past the tough demeanor, the fancy cars, the muscles, and the overwhelming attitude can be a very different creature. It is true that you never see the proverbial “real me”. The truth of the matter is that you only can see what you are given and have to go with the initial instincts of a situation. The decision to accuse of a lie or immoral action can cause both parties great pain. The other side is to ignore these properties all together and many among us have a difficulty doing so.

To trust is a divine action that we as humans can share. It can also be the most difficult. This applies not only to trusting others but also trusting ourselves. Trusting that we are making the best decisions in our best interests is a task all by itself. Many tend to believe that self destruction is part of the daily task.

Moving beyond the pain of the past is not impossible but akin to pushing a car up a hill. It’s possible but rarely does it happen to the best of us. Even Mrs. Jesus can only help so much. It has to be in our hands. It just does not seem to always work out for the best.

If you look at the most happy person, you will get something else completely behind the veil. Integrating all the parts of my self is my goal. Looking past the good and the bad and striving for the whole of me is my journey. Large egos fill a room but you should embrace it to find a common place in yourself. Put the ego in perspective and use it when needed. Finding a way to access the vulnerability and ego is a challenge but a challenge that is needed.

People can have such hatred and anger filled notions of a person. Understanding why the people feel this way can benefit so much. It’s not a matter of agreeing with these notions but understanding where these feelings are coming from. It’s ok to be vulnerable and it’s hard to hide sometimes.

At the end of the day, it comes down to finding ourselves. The exploration of our souls and psyche can be a tormenting venture but worth it in the end.

The Good Fight

Pain and pleasure. The two seem to go hand in hand. Im going through the constant dilemnia of how far is too far. When do you throw in the towel and give up? Im seeing someone and it seems doomed. We have nothing in common but we are still trying to make it work. He is a good person..loyal and big hearted. That seems to be whats keeping me in the relationship. The problem is that we are so different. How do I deal with all this madness? I know he can tell there is something wrong and is feeling my cold shoulder. I just dont want to lead someone on and be a jerk.