Hopeful Heart

Everyone seems to want to change themsevles in a New Year. It really all comes down to change. A New Year offers a prospect that so many need, hope. Hope for a better tomorrow or a thought of it all being ok. Why can’t it all be ok not to change? Why must it take a certain day to realize we need change?
Happiness is so important to us all. We all want a new job, a better car, and our relationships to be fruitful. Is is too much to ask that these all come at the same time? I would assume we must step back from our wants and needs to examine what is needed. I think you have to be ready to lose and fall before you really see change. You have to step back and see that what is needed is where you are and what you have in your pocket. It seems everyone is looking for a new trend to become obesessed with and torture themselves with on a daily basis. These days are so interesting to me. Ink my skin and I am a happy man.
Do you ever think about all those times you stopped yourself from saying I love you to someone? Think about all those days you spent worrying about your ramblings, I don’t do so much of that anymore. I think about how all these changes came my way and I wonder if I WILL ever see another highway? I’ve been winning so long, should I BE HAPPY?
Why can’t we stop our dreaming? Turn off those thoughts of what we see and can’t process in our heads. I guess we can deal with them if we chose to confront ourselves with them. Fuck those feelings, let’s buy our happiness away. That’s the motto of this great nation, isnt it?
The best part of my day is when I see the sunrise on my morning commute. It comes so quickly and opens my eyes and I smile. It’s something that gives me inexplainable happiness and I don’t pay a dime for it. No cosmetic surgery can fix it and no car company can produce it for me.
It’s so easy to sweep away those things we don’t want to deal with and hide. They will hide, under the carpet, and surprise us when we least expect. Mist will cover the bridge for so long but we eventually see where we are going. It can take some time to figure out what happiness means to us but once we do, we search for it with great vigor. We always know we are not the only one searching.